Oct. 8/98

Dearest Cassandra,

I could never have imagined life without you. The day you died, a big part of me died. Every day my heart aches for you. Oh how I wish I could turn back the pages. I would have told you more often that I loved you, I would have hugged you more. Oh, how my heart aches, life without you. You had so many plans. You even had names picked out for your children. But it wasn't meant to be.

I remember the last time I saw you. You were walking out the back door, with your plaid shorts, and black top. I love you, and miss you so much. When does the pain ever end? Dad and I had so many plans for you, now they won't come true, except for a few. These days I spend a lot of time in your room. I hope you don't mind. It makes me feel close to you. I ask the Lord don't let me forget you, not even for one day.

There are so many precious memories of you left behind. You are in every room in this house, and everywhere I go. I especially remember your beautiful smile, it could brighten the gloomiest day! I'm so thankful for all that you left us. The cards, the many poems, and your precious testimony.

I believe our biggest goal for you, was that above all else, you would love the Lord Jesus with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength. A goal I believe was accomplished. Even though our hearts ache, we know in fact, you are only sleeping. You are safe in the arms of love, with our dear Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ.

We believe the Lord will accomplish His purpose here on the earth, and we will do our very best to co-operate with Him and His plan. We look forward to the day when our dear Lord returns, and we can also be reunited with our loved ones.

I thank the Lord every day for His mercy and His grace, without which we would never be able to handle this great suffering. Also, we thank the Lord for the precious love of the saints, which has been such a comfort to us at this time.

Love always and forever,
Mommy